future plan

day by day... many thing have happen... day by day... jz can saw ppl more clear... time make me feel disappointed... time let me knw the reality in world... nothing is alway good... no easy wan to be good ppl... no one can be trust for 100% even is sibling... in this world i will only trust on my parent from i start wab leave house apply for university... my sister help me so much... gv me support.. gv me company for go... day by day... i hv forget bout it.. but due to this, i so much thank for them.. but oso due to this, i understand is very hard for i ask ppl help even is sibling... need to independent... all thing happen in this few month.. very make me feel flush for this type life... fren... sibling.... relatif... all look fake... this is reality of life??? so much cruel life...

travel life

last year is my 1st time back pack travel... feeling is totally different then the trip i go before... last year May i hv go to indonesia medan... is oso nice trip... but its only for 3 day 2 nite... but the back pack travel is around 8 day... stay in dom, tk bus from one state to other state.... is new experience for me... from malaysia tk air asia fligh go to combodia PHNOM PENH , visit to tuel sleng museum, royal palace, PHNOM PENH central market... the most attractive me is tuel sleng museum. tuel sleng museum: (S-21) its use to be a high school until the Khmer Rouge converted it into a prison and interrogation facility. The prisoners were tortured over months then executed at the Killing Fields. Only 7 people survived this horrible place. In one building prisoners were chained to metal beds and there is one room where you can still see the faint remains of a pool of blood under the bed. (very scary... still cleary in mind) In another building the rooms are divided into small brick cages, prisoners were shackled and left here starving, to await more torture or death. then from phnom penh move to siamreap by van.. the driver drive very fast n no safety at all... the road oso no smooth... but... sure i n my fren oso reach to siemreap safety.... reach to siem reap the 1st thing sure is going to ANGKOR WAT 1. 2. Banteay Kdei( big tree) 3. Bayon ( smile face) after done... again v move... from combodia move to thailand... tired but v v v nice n good experiens i m lucky coz come teach at pahang, recognice all is good teacher... gv me so much knowledge... especially my fren here...thx them in my heart...

妇女节3月8号2014

今年的妇女节，马航飞机失事了。。今天是11号了，第四天了，依然还是找不到失事的飞机。。到底飞机是不是飞到另外一个世界了？还是去了哪里？？希望真的是去另一个世界，明天会收到消息找到飞机了。。。祈福。。。

昨天爸爸的生日，跟爸爸谈了蛮久一下。。开心。。祝爸爸身体健康，长命百岁，心想事成

被惊吓的一天

今天在学校， 有一个很有幽默感的老师即将离开，所以学校举办了majlis perpisahan。。。 刚好又有一个老师将在9/3/2014结婚，也顺便庆祝一下。。。 气氛很热闹。。。 我一直和乐哈说想吃chees cake..跟他拿了食谱。。 结果她今天带了给我。。很好吃。。感动和感恩他。。。 在加叻的日子很不错，什么都有得吃。。。 今天我和几个女学生谈天，突然有个印度学生来拍一拍我的手然后骂了我一句：“bodoh"... 我很生气，无言无辜来骂我。。我虽然很怕他会突然打我（因为特殊孩子的情绪是不稳定的，也是不会想后果的）可是我还是骂了他，然后去坐回我的位子。。。 这2014年，真不知道是我的好年吗？ 才进入第三个月，我已经见了两次医生，吃了很多药 才进入第三个月，我就被我学生无意的攻击几次了。。。 有时还真的会怕咯。。 不过今年我发现一个难搞的学生终于有所改变，有进步。。虽然他爱顶嘴， 可是我给的功课他都会做，不会把书盖起来，不会对我说懒惰做，不会还没试做就说难。。。 虽然，或许别人不觉得。。。可是这些小小的改变足以让我觉得很满足了。。。 希望他会继续努力。。再改点态度。。就好了。。。

18 NOVEMBER 2012

my best fren was married ad... and other best fren is oso on the way married soon... year by year, then one by one fren is going married soon... congrat to them... hv meet their mr. right... ad i get posting to pahang, oso work there near 6 month... but, dun knw why... i still feel i less some thing in my life... some time dun knw how comunicate with the student.. some time dun knw how face the teacher there.... life hv many thing dun knw, dun knw.... life feel empty...

wow

open this blog jz knw i ad one year no touch it...no write anything...actually in this year ad happen many thing...but why i no write it oso i dun knw...i pratical at mellaca, after that convol...then start my life in teaching...

but this year 2012, is a year i more near with teaching life... i more handle on this variety special education kids...so much challenge my patient, my idea, my mind, my mental, my fiz ...all is challenge... face this variety kids, i so much worry n scare..some time feel wan give up...dun wan face this type kids...wat i say they dun understand, when i angry oso they dun feel, when i punch them heart feel pain...

some time feel myself is bad...so much bad...why i knw they was special edu kids still i cant patient on treat them... actually in class only 4 student... jz some time run the kids home work very rush...until i nd all time stay in my class, cant be like other teacher tat can go out meditation, talk a while....

at nite teach at kids home...fri n sat oso teach at kids home...this is my life nw..all time jz on work..prepare homework for kids, teach the kids...tat all...
feel like very free...but alway feel i not enuf time...
here jz wan share some my kids pic... they are my life nw...:P

一波未平一波又来

唉。。。没水的日子好恐怖。。。淹水的日子不好过啊。。。
做什么是都无法起劲。。。闷。。。都不知要做什么好叻。。。
又烦又闷。。。

最后的那一天

很怕， 最后的一天。。。
这就是人生。。。没有不散的宴席。。。但总要面对离别， 真的很不舍。。。
要去马六甲找学校， 在那儿实习。。过了半年有要离开。。。到别的地方工作。。。就这样相聚又分开。。。很舍不得。。。。o(︶︿︶)o 唉。。。时间真的过的好快好快。。。

mmm...long time not come in my blog...why??
aii..cause bz n bz...really bzzzz...
n oso because i hv nothing to write or share here..
not only blog, dairy oso i not write...coz, if i write mostly is bout HE, n now...he was long time gone, so...nothing to write...feel like my life just got him izzit?? i'm odw to improve this life....

o(︶︿︶)o 唉

today plan go to discus assigment de, suddenly need 2 prepare for the Kh pulak....really haiz ya.. don like do think suddenly...but at here i think everything alway suddenly lo...so bored ya...assigment still left many like mountain, this week want go home liao...hehehe....

前天去了kl的kolej islam antarabangsa, KIA...做o&m的功课。。那边有好多的外国人，但全都是黑人啊。。他们看到我们都很好奇，问我们是那边的新生吗？是中国人吗？ 哈哈哈。。。既然还向我们要电话，当然不可以啦，吓死人哦！！这可给我们新的经验哦！！很好玩。。。

很烦啊！！ 为何XX做什么，在别人眼里都是好的，美的，对的。。。而我却是坏的，错的，不美的？？难道我真的那么差??我要的不多，但没必要都只针对着我啊！！我做错了什么？？ 有问题就来找我。叫我帮忙， 有好的事，你们就找XX，这是什么意思？？ 我只是帮你们解决问题的吗？该怎么办？我已经很努力劝自己其实你们并不是利用我，你们是觉得我能帮得上而已。。。但为何就只是有事发生了，你们才会想到我？？我也会累，不是累在帮你们。而是累在说服自己你们并不是那样的，是我太敏感，想太多。。但连XX也这么觉得，说你们对他很好，那我算什么？？ 你们有当我是你们的朋友吗?

功课好多，但却没有心想做咯！！哎。。这学期怎么了？？ 好像有很多事要解决，但。。。家里冷清清，就剩几个人而已，不像以前那么热闹了。。。这几天都很迟睡，熊猫也来找我了。。。哈哈。。。闷啊！！！！

唉！！ 好多天没上来乐，但也没什么重要吧。。。
唉！！ 在想，为何他只会说却不行动呢？？ 难道这么难吗？？ 今天一个朋友把我唤醒了， 他让我明白，我不能一直这样下去等“那个他”， 因为我和“那个他”是不可能了！！我必须醒啊！！“哪个他”已经遇到他的幸福，我也该祝福“哪个他”。。。虽然心里有一百个一千个不愿意放手，但现在已经不论到我说药方还是不要了！！如果我在这样下去，可能会伤害自己。。。安慰自己，~这世界上没有人非要另一个人才能活的~ 就算没有“哪个他”我的日子还是回过得很好。。加油吧！

today bz n bz, 1st time make me feel tat 24 hour in one day really not enuf, time run too fast until i cant catch...maybe is good, atleast i not have too much time to think too much...skul practical, program, assig...all come together...B alway sms me, until i feel so confuse..ai...x housemate go bec penang, house bcome silent again...feel sleepy, but after sleep, will be tomolo, so scare to face the coming day, why? i oso think funny leh, y i scare for the day of tomolo??

she really is a nice fren, she really care for me...except she, still got many ppl oso really care for me, i know...just dunnoe why, i still feel like our relation are far, got something between us...maybe its my problem, until today i oso can solve my problem...i'm not the nice ppl, tat can easy be fren with ppl, maybe oso can make ppl feel tat i suitable be their fren...just i feel must avoid me from hurt, not bcoz i not trust, just bcoz i hv the experien cheap by fren...i scare...really scare...i just hope can protect myself...

这几天和他都有联络，对他我要装着平常，真得很辛苦！！唉！！功课来了，要选实习的地方。。。但我的好朋友既然不管我！！有点心痛，因为他和他朋友在一起。。。很想去kl,希望真的能去。。。真的好烦啊！！ 很想闭上眼，什么也不想的，但不想就能当这没东西吗？？自己想要什么，我也不清楚。。有点想给另一个他机会，担心还没放下，那不是对他不公平吗？？ 或许，一个人好了，不必那么烦！！哎。。。为什么那么多烦恼？？

今天小妹就会回学校了，我还跑去狂街。。弟弟叫我帮他买ext. hardisk, 有点懒，但又怕他来不及去买，所以就跑去帮他买咯。。幸好来得及哦！！“他”突然打电话给我，但无事不登三宝殿咯！！就是需要我的帮助啊！！哎！！闷阿！！为何每次都这样的。。利用我！！和他肯定是不可能，担心还是无法放下咯！！气自己。。下午两点多爸爸就在我去火车站。。不能睡哦。。。

today go to donate my blood, shoping at a/star mall, pc fair....ah ting buy laptop ad, i and mom go to s/kuala pasar pagi...waste so many money again....

a gal will go bec her campus, me will go bec tomolo...so sien wen think want go there...hopenew semester will got new start...hope everything will going good... hahaha (@@,)